Fellow Christians, please lend a hand.?

I have been a Christian for a few years but these past months I feel like I'm just wasting my time. I try to stick to the word of God, and I try to follow the commandments and I'm hardly rewarded. I feel like people who aren't even Christians lead a better life than I do. I have no joy in my life. I'm always alone and I have barely any friends. I am stuck at home all day and whenever I go out I usually go places alone. I pray for friendship and for my solitude to end but my prayers seem futile because the Lord refuses to answer them. What the hell am I supposed to do? I honestly don't know if I can continue being a Christian with the way things are. There is no damn joy in my life. I feel nothing but pain. This isn't how its supposed to be.